I feel like I have fought the fight. Learned so much with web development, web architecture and finally have obtained good knowledge with Amazon Web Services.
Truth is, I think I am now a developer, sys admin, it administrator, security analyst and automation engineer. Funny how I only get a salary for one of those titles.
I thought that as I got older, things would get easier or at least become more clear-coated. I was mistaken as I have been learning so much over the past few years with cloud computing, geospatial analysis and weather forecasting that my brain is turning into a computation device. I am losing my human touch but also enjoying the vast amount of knowledge and learning.
I don't know how to balance the onslaught of information but seem to absorb it pretty well; even at 44 years old. I'm sure that there will be a time where I can't so I must appreciate it whilst I can - I suppose.
I have always been a technology cynic but haven't swayed from it. It is an interesting love-hate relationship that I have with technology. As much as I love learning new things, I hate feeling like I am starting over all the time. I thought my failures in my 20's would have made me a super-pro at 44 years old. That isn't the case as I am humbled every day when I try to implement something new and break something which takes a toll on my self worth.
I live to fail everyday, just to learn from my own mistakes - so is life.
